It's a bust

Cycle #3 done and dusted. 

AF arrived today and I am due for my pregnancy bloods on Wednesday. What's the point. 

Feeling so low tonight. 

I just want to curl up and cry. 

Trying to decide if we have time for round #4 before we go to the USA at the end of the month. We would get through most of it. But would more than likely be due for the pregnancy test while in the states. 

I'm not so sure what to do. 

So list. So sad 

Round 3 OI here we come

Well it's officially day 2 and I'm sitting and waiting for my nurses appointment and blood work. I'm trying so so hard not to think too much about it but it is proving difficult considering I've been up since 4:30 am. 

I can start getting my head done in again. I just can't. 

Another blood test

Today is my final blood test got this failed round. If almost seems pointless having this blood test because I already know the answer. 

I haven't started my period yet but I know it's coming. 

I'm not sure how to feel this morning. I really don't. 

Mid cycle bloods

It's funny even with a failed cycle is till need to go in for my bloods. 

I had my mid cycle blood yesterday. But what I found very interesting is they aren't much different to my last mid cycle blood levels. Im not on any booster shots so I found that to be very interesting. 

Results for yesterday: 

Your hormone levels today confirm you are mid luteal, which means you are a week post ovulation.

Your blood Results from today were:
Estrogen (E2): 561
Progesterone (P4): 47

Your next blood test will be on: WED 6/4

It's a fail!

It's officially a failed cycle. We need to do the trigger shot tomorrow night to ensure the two follicles i do have don't form into cysts. My levels aren't great and it's not looking good at all. But they did say by some miracle the left ovary might pick up the egg from the right in the form of some magical fairy unicorn dust. 

My levels for today:

Your results today show you are ready to ovulate.

Your blood results from today were:
Estrogen (E2): 1174
Lutenizing Hormone (LH): 6
Progesterone (P4): 1

Please take your: LAST DOSE OF GONAL F 37.5 TOMORROW MORNING WED 23/3.
** TAKE YOUR TRIGGER, OVIDREL 250 X1 ( 1 WHOLE PEN) TOMORROW NIGHT WED 23/3
** OVIDREL BOOSTS ARE NOT REQUIRED IN THIS CYCLE AS DISCUSSED ON THE TELEPHONE THIS AFTERNOON.**

Now is the time to start trying to conceive (have unprotected intercourse) with your partner TOMORROW NIGHT AND THE NEXT FEW NIGHTS FOLLOWING.

We will give it a go. 

But looks like cycle number 3 might be the magic number. 

Well this just sucks!

Today was my ultrasound. It really didn't go as planned. It showed 2 folicles in my right and none on my left!!!!

I may have dropped the f bomb during my scan. The sonographer was understanding. but, I feel like a failure. 

My bloods haven't improved much either. 

Your hormone levels from today were as follows:
Estrogen (E2) : 728
Lutenizing Hormone (LH):  4.8
Progesterone (P4): <1.0


These bloods show: ESTROGEN RESPONDING

Please continue your medications: GONAL F 37.5

Your next BLOOD TEST: TUESDAY 22/3/16

So it's another blood test tomorrow in the morning. So we will see how that plays out. 

I knew the first cycle of two big folicles on either side was too good to be true.

Feeling pretty shitty tonight. Wine is in order.

Sleepless -

In a few hours time I have my blood test and ultrasound. 

I am pretty sure I am due to ovulate tonight and therefore I'll be taking my trigger shot Ovidrel  tonight. 

It's amazing that exactly 1 week ago I started my period and now I'm about to ovulate. It just seems so early!  

No wonder why all these years of timing and ovulation home kits etc never worked because I was always doing it at the wrong time. 

I must ask the sonographer about this. About how early I'm ovulating and how my Adenomyosis is going. Last time she could see the flare up which was interesting. 

Tonight I can't sleep. I'm bloated and have too much on my mind. - my father in law had two mini strokes. I'm worried about him and I'm worried about WJ.  So me worried means me not sleeping. 

Which then leads me into me looking at online recipes and shopping! 

So today is a big day. Let's see how it goes. 

Mid cycle bloods

I had my ongoing bloods this morning. 

I'm cycle day 6 and I've already been booked in for my ultrasound and blood for Monday. I seem to ovulate very early, but it would make sense as my cycles are on average 25 days. 

So my results for today are: 

Your hormone levels from today were as follows:
Estrogen (E2) : 420
Lutenizing Hormone (LH):  5.4


These bloods show: GOOD RESPONSE TO MEDICATIONS

Please continue your medications: GONAL F 37.5 DAILY.

Your next BLOOD TEST: MONDAY 21/03/16
Please attend ULTRASOUND:  MONDAY 21/03/16 @ 09:20 AM

Thankfully work is understanding with all these late starts. I've been very open and honest with my boss. I think that's the only way to go. I would hate to do this behind his back and him think I was being slack. I've worked too hard to get a bad reputation now. I refuse to let my work suffer. 

So here's to Monday lets hope these little follicles are growing nicely. 

Round 2

Ding ding ding!!!!

Today is now officially day 2. 

Yesterday I went in for my pregnancy test and I told the nurse that there was no point that I was on day 1 and wanted to go right into a new cycle. 

As it turns out my bloods were at baseline and I can start my gonal-f today. 

I'm back on 37.5 and I responded pretty well with that by getting two mature follicles - one on either side. 

The most important one is the left ovary as my right tube is blocked. 

So let's keep our heads held high and go on for this next round. I think people are quite surprised how well I'm taking this. Failure is easy to deal with when your use to it. 

This explains it all

I really can't even get to my blood test to find out. But there was no denying it this morning! 

Analogy away.....

This morning a had a little spotting. I'm due for my pregnancy blood test on Monday morning at the clinic to see if our first round of OI actually worked.

Seeing this spotting this morning was of no surprise. Why would this time be any different from any other time?

Why would it actually work 1st time around?

I actually just wish that one time in one cycle in all of these years that I would actually be able to get to blood test day and not have a period already surprise me.

I was talking to WJ on the phone this morning  - he always has a way of making me laugh. He used the analogy of

"This is like buying a lotto ticket. You find out no one won, even before you had the chance to check your numbers!"

So then it turned into a little game - how many analogies could be possibly come up with...

1. getting your period before the blood test.
2. knowing lotto results before checking your numbers.
3. knowing the game score before watching the game.
4.    i cant remember the rest......

so we will see. Ill wait for Monday - but i am loosing hope.

there's always next time....

Final booster shot.

I'm officially 1 week away from finding out if I'm pregnant. 

I'm not trying to think about it. But ever little tingle. Every little unusual feeling in my belly makes me think of this could be it. 

I know the drugs do give you symptoms but I really hope this is it. 

1 week. 1 week to go. 

Mid phase bloods

This morning I had my Luteal phase blood work. 

It's been a great week. Work has been hectic but I've still kept up my exercise regime. It really does make you feel amazing. 

I've switched to decaf coffee and drinks and I've cut out all of my afternoon wines and gin. It hasn't been too bad I've  just been drinking decaf ice tea which is very refreshing. 

So my blood results are

Your hormone levels today confirm you are mid luteal, which means you are a week post ovulation.

Your blood Results from today were:
Estrogen (E2): 451
Progesterone (P4): 63

I have one more booster shot on Monday and a blood test Monday morning. I'm not sure what that one is for. 

So here's to a wonderful long weekend 

If anyone knows anything about progesterone levels how do mine look?

Xxx

Luisa

So there are how many side effects???

You know the drugs you are taking are awesome when it's printed on paper the size of a newspaper. 

And thank you Ovidrel for the bleeding, bruise and bloating. 

The 3 B's

First day of autumn. First booster shot

I took my first booster shot today and now I'm off to my Xtend Barre class all before 6am not bad!

Working out has become a huge part of my life and I feel confident that when I do get pregnant that I will be able to keep up with it. 

The ladies at my Xtend barre studio have a huge amount of experience and alter the routin for women who are pregnant and they even do pregnancy Pilates. 

I would love to do one of those session!!

So here's to the booster shot (I'm going to bruise with this one) grow little one grow!!

Saying a little prayer for you xxxx

Boom boom boom

So what's in order for this weekend?? 

Well well well. 

26 February 2016


Dear 

Your results today show you are ready to ovulate.

Your blood results from today were:
Estrogen (E2): 1650
Lutenizing Hormone (LH): 15
Progesterone (P4): <1

Please take your: OVIDREL 250 TRIGGER TONIGHT @ 8PM
***NO MORE GONALF AFTER TODAY ******

Now is the time to start trying to conceive (have unprotected intercourse) with your partner tonight, tomorrow and following day.

Boosts (Ovidrel '6 clicks'): 1ST , 4TH AND 7TH OF MARCH 
Your boost injections contain HCG, the same hormone a pregnancy produces. Due to this, home pregnancy tests may give a false positive if done within a week of the last boost injection. We advise that you wait your blood test to ensure accuracy of results

Special instructions: YOU HAVE 2 DOMINANT FOLLICLES 1 ON EACH SIDE. HOWEVER YOUR RIGHT SIDE IS BLOCKED. THERE IS STILL A RISK OF A MULTIPLE PREGNANCY ALTHOUGH THE RISK IS VERY SMALL. 

So a little boom boom boom

Clothing issues

1st world fertility problems! 

Wearing a dress - need to take my Gonal-f. 

Why did I even get dressed this morning!

Things are moving along nicely

Yesterday I had my second blood test. I've been on Gonal-f since Saturday and my blood results are indicating that I am close to ovulation. 

My blood work indicated:

25 February 2016

Your hormone levels from today were as follows:
Estrogen (E2) : 1050
Lutenizing Hormone (LH):   4.8
Progesterone (P4): 1.1

These bloods show: ESTROGEN IS RISING VERY WELL - LOOKING CLOSE TO OVULATION 

Please continue your medications: GONAL F 37.5 DAILY

Your next BLOOD TEST: TOMORROW 26/2/16
Please attend ULTRASOUND:  TOMORROW 26/2/16 AT 9.00AM

So this morning I'm off for another blood testcard internal ultrasound. They will see if I have any little follicles growing, which ovary and how many on each ovary. 

We are hoping to have at least 1 on my left side. My right tube is blocked so we need to ensure that my left is producing well. 

I'm going tinted and sneak a few photos of my ultrasound today. 

My stomach is quiet bloated so I'm hoping things are moving along quiet well  in there.   

Cycle day 5 - the drugs are taking hold

37.5

37.5

37.5

Same time every morning. 

That I don't mind and it doesn't hurt but today-------

I feel like my head is about to explode. I've had a headache for 2 days now and I'm not sure if it's he weather or the Gonal -f?

And I feel exhausted. 

I don't have my next blood test until Thursday so it will be interesting to see how my levels are doing. 

This is all fun and games and its feels like I'm on the right path. 

Day 3 - Adenomyosis

In December 2015 I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis (still learning how to spell and say it)!

Getting this diagnosis was actually a relief for me. For years I had battled sever pain before, during and after menstruation. My periods were so heavy that I would need to wear double protection (tampon and pad).





But like many women we just keep going on thinking that what we are experiencing is 'normal'. Everyone gets cramps -
Everyone has heavy flow days -
Its all in my head -
Its not that bad -
Its normal to buy 5 boxes of super heavy duty tampons each month -

Well funny enough it isn't normal!


This is how the Mayo Clinic explains Adenomyosis

Adenomyosis

and a fascinating little YouTube video

Day 2 injections have began

My results from this mornings blood test

Oestrogen (E2): 319
Lutenizing Hormone (LH):5.5
Progesterone (P4):<1
FSH: 7.3

These results: SHOW YOUR LEVELS ARE BASELINE AS EXPECTED

Please start: GONAL F 37.5 TODAY SAT 20/02/16 AND CONTINUE DAILY IN THE MORNINGS.

Day 2 - Bloods and Drugs

Boy how some things have changed since I last went through this.

Picked up my scripts and had an education session with the nurse on how to administer the drugs.

I'm going to be using Gonal-f and Overdril for my trigger shot.

I was jumping out of my seat with excitement when I got my scripts. Now I'm just waiting in line for my bloods and I just can't wait to get on with this.

This time is going to be different I can feel it

CD 1: 19th February 2016

Waiting for a new cycle to start and of course my AF is 3 days late. 🙄🙄🙄🙄


It finally came today so first up this morning is a phone call to the clinic too Than use day 2 bloods and drugs.

I couldn't be more excited. DH is coming along with me in the morning. I forgot how to inject myself. I need a little encouragement.

I know the nurses will show me everything in the morning.

I feel so much happier at my new clinic. I feel like a person not a number.

Here to day 2!!!

New Year. New Me. New Cycle

it has been such a long time since I wrote about anything fertility related!

We have been on such a journey the last few years that I need to document it again. 

Sadly since I stopped writing no baby has made it into our lives. 

I was very overweight so it was time to work on me. 

I had gastric sleeve surgery and lost over 50kg. I've never been in better shape. I'm healthier and loving life. My DH has been nothing but supportive and now we are ready to continue on our journey. 

I thought that perhaps weight loss would help me get pregnant but unfortunately that was not the case. 

It took a huge amount of courage to phone my specialist for an appointment. I actually picked up and hug up the phone 3 times before actually dialing the number. 

My Dr was amazing. He straight away stated me on a tracking cycle to see what my hormones were doing and he ordered ultrasounds, a HSG and a battery of blood tests. 

This went on for a month ...........

Results day!!!!!

I have known for a long time that things were not right with my body. I was always in extreme pain during my period and it was always very heavy. I wasn't sure if this was normal or not. 

As it turns out no it's not normal and I was finally diagnosed with "Andomyosis" which was described to me as the evil step sister of endometriosis. 

The HSG showed my right side was completely blocked and that I has polyps and fibroids again. 

So first protocol was to have another Laproscopy and get this taken care of. 

1 week later, December 16 2015, I was in surgery. 

Fast forward to out of surgery, recovery room Dr visit. 

I just love my specialist. He has he best sense of humor and I get him and he gets me. He walked into recovery laughing at me and throwing his hands in the air. He couldn't believe what he had found while he had me under. 

The good news there were no polyps or fibroids or endometriosis - fantastic. 

BUT

What he did find was intrauterine Adhesions. 

My uterus cavity - which is already small was completely closed with these Adhesions. 

Well these adhesions were so tough that when he went to cut and remove them they immediately re-adhered. He had to insert an IUD to keep it open and heal. 

So first measure was to keep in the IUD for 2 cycles and the we will remove it and start treatment. 

And now here we are IUD has been removed and we are starting an Ovulation Induction with timed BDing cycle. 

So here we go again. Let's hope the weightless helps move things right along.