Decisions to Make

my heart hurts...

it has been such a long journey for us to try and conceive a much wanted child and we don't ever seem to be getting any closer to reaching our goal.

i had my surgery in April and we were really hoping that this would be our go sign

but unfortunately things don't seem to have worked out that way.

every time i hear of another person getting pregnant or see a stroller it hurts so much.

the other morning on our local radio station they had a special about female infertility and who did they have on the radio talking about it but Dr T - the one who f-ed me around. the minute i heard his voice i became a complete mess. i was brushing my teeth and hysterically crying. it brought back a whole lot of difficult emotions and i couldn't take it. that man killed my soul. he took apart of me that I'm not sure when ill get ever get back.

WJ and I have decided that we need to contact Dr C again and take this further. I was hoping not to go down the medicate route but it looks as if this is our own only choice.

Useless advice I want to give back.

I was strolling about Bubhub the other day and I came across this post.

I add some much needed laughter to my very low mood.

I'm not one to hog all of the fertiles wonderful words of useless advice without giving any back. Oh fertiles. 


Your random, unscientific words of wisdom. They mean so much to me. 


And so now I offer similar advice back to you.

Fertile Complaint: I never go out any more.
My Advice: I guess going out wasn't in God's plan for you.

Fertile Complaint: I feel fat. I can't lose this baby weight.
My Advice: Being skinny just wasn't meant to be for you at this time in your life.

Fertile Complaint: I am so tired after having this baby.
My Advice: Just relax.

Fertile Complaint: My breasts have deflated after having the baby.
My Advice: Well, maybe you just aren't using the right positions. Have you considered standing on your head. Or learning to walk on your hands. That should keep those girls upright.

Fertile Complaint: I'm an anxious mom.
My Advice: I heard that if you go away on vacation all your worries will simply lift away. You'll come back and be a free-spirited mom without a care in the world. I know this lady who couldn't stop worrying about her kids for 10 years. Then she took a vacation. And now she even lets her kids run around in traffic without a helmet.

Fertile Complaint: I'm concerned that I may be pregnant again too soon.
My Advice: Don't adopt. Because everybody knows that adoption is a sure way to get pregnant.

You're welcome fertiles. 

I'm there for you

Luisa xxx