I need to stop thinking...

Don't you hate it when you have time to think and your mind goes around in circles thinking of a million and one thing.

At the moment we are back to trying for a baby the traditional way.

But I can't help but think - What if it never happens for us?

We are coming up to 3 years of tying and about 5 years from me being off the pill and nothing. Not a single positive pregnancy test (the only time i tested positive was the day after a Pregnyl shot and idiot me got excited)
NOTHING.. WHY????
Not even a late period to get excited about.

How long can you keep going on the same disappointing roller coaster ride?


I'm not ready to give up, thats not what I'm saying but today i just feel so low and poor WJ is coping the grumpiness.


I'm excited that in a few weeks time a few of us who are going through IVF are catching up for a coffee. It will be so great to talk to people who are going through the same thing as yourself.

I think we should call our selves the IVy group.


Well i must get on with the day - but to be honest i just want to crawl back into bed and not get out.

xx xx

I'm feeling like myself again

You know a few months ago I was so stubborn  and thought that I didn't need a break from fertility treatments, but now that it has been forced upon us I'm really enjoying the break from drugs, needles, blood tests and ultrasounds. And in the midst of all of this i had forgotten that sex was actually for fun too not just for procreation. 

All year my parents have been after us to take a trip with them to Italy. But I was never able to give them an answer to where we would be with all our treatments. Well now that everything is on hold we are going to ITALY!!

Its been such a tough year for our family. My brother has separated from his wife (about 3 months ago) and we cant conceive so i think as a consolation prize my parents are taking us all on a business class trip to Italy for a month. bahahaha WOW i think my parents feel sorry for us - bahaha. the trip will do US ALL GOOD. We need a change of pace.

Now that I'm myself again I can laugh again. It feels so good to laugh, I'm not feeling bitter any longer. I can actually talk about the disappointing year and not cry. 

Sending all my love and positive vibes to all of my other Infertiles - Lets not allow this journey to crush us - only make us stronger.

xxxxx